awakening

I had did something bad in the day. Got pissed by someone. Anyway, it's my fault but there’s just funny feeling. In order to release myself from all this nonsense, I started praying. I guess it's been centuries since I last prayed.

I made a simple prayer to God. Glad that I feel released from all those bad feelings within me.

Feel really tired of keep repeating the same old mistakes every time.
Toh Dai En, It’s time to grow up!

Since i started praying, i decided to read the word of God too. 我有了意外收获。While rummaging among the piles of past sermon notes, I found a piece of paper. My past quiet time note, I’m greatly encouraged by it. I feel joy now :D

This is what I wrote for my quiet time during the August of 2005:

I can overcome the temptation of sinning, if I’m willing to seek Him. I must crucify my old self. I can choose to walk after the spirit instead of the flesh. I must be accountable to my words.

God is with me always. Regardless of what had happened.

AMAN! God is with me always. I will be able to overcome all the obstacles with HIM.

Happy D

Wheeee... today went for blood donation... feel so happy now, cause it's been at least 3 months since i last donate my blood... Always busy or should say always lazy to go for it...
Actually i went to the school organised donation drive... Kinda lazy still... wahhahaha... Hope school will organise this kind of blood donation more often... :D

I'm happy today cause i did something good! My next donation will be on 23rd April... Shall be constant in this... whee... targeting to donate at least 4 times this year... Donate blood to save life!

Vann's birthday!

Celebrated Vann's birthday today... The below is the birthday "cake" i made for her :D
Hope you like it! Today post shall be dedicated to Vanessa Pau Yik Ka.

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我想要拥有它。

whats wrg?

Being true, I must admit that I'm still having some hard feelings toward the incident that happened. This shall be the last post of my feelings about the whole incident and it will be the wrap up of the whole thing for me.

Like what Debbie said, both sides is in wrong. And if both parties are not going to say or do anything about it, things will just continue this way. Something i dislike about this kind of situation will be everyone start to 疑神疑鬼, 绷着脸

I apologise not only because i had reflected, but I also want to make a effort in twisting the whole atmosphere from the cloudy to the clearer side.
If a person apology can at least 缓和整个气氛，why not?

Question: What is true reflection?

Is true reflection to think about what had went wrong and make a effort to do something about the wrong thing?

Or is it to find alternative ways/words to cover up what had been wrong, and keep on thinking that; "THAT"S ME!". People just have to accept the way I am...

People tend to say others are hypocrites or 两头蛇... BUT did you ever think of:

How true are you to others?

你敢说你对每个人都是真诚对待吗？没有半点虚伪成分或不好的意图？

I choose to tag on the tag board instead of MSN is to let people be my witness of what i had said, since so many individuals already know about the thing that is going on.

并不是挑衅.

friendship

What does your friendship built on?

1. Gossips

2. 酸来酸去

3. Sharing of experience

Quite number of my friendship is based on gossiping, i don't deny that. In fact, many people friendship is base on that. How long can a gossiping friendship last? Last till both parties no longer have a gossiping target?

酸来酸去, friendship can also be based from sarcastic remarks of one another, but you never know when the person will be sensitive to that sarcastic remarks that you think is fine, and just get pissed by you.
你真的开心吗？ 当你是因为踩着别人而感到高高在上.

Sharing of experience, I guess this is my most positive way of building a relationship. Sharing of life experience with one another, it not only let you learn mistakes from one another but also help to encourage each other when one party is down.

I will change my way of building friendship to the positive way. It will be built on sharing and no longer on gossips and discouragement. :D

Open rebuke

Do you think you can handle a person to rebuke you openly?

I don't think I can handle it well. I guess I will be kinda hurt by that person and might even start nursing hatred towards that person, even though at that moment i might seems to be fine.

Nobody likes to be rebuked openly.
Good friend won't rebuke you in front of others, but will tell you when no one else will heard it.

There are times that you make sarcastic remarks about your friend in front of others, but does it ever cross your mind that how your friend will feel after hearing such remarks? Felt embarrassed by you.
That person might just appears to be fine, but you never know when your sarcastic remarks will hurt a person.
Even though sarcastic remarks might seems to be funny at that moment, and might even bring laughter, but it is build on pain of others.

Do you think you meet a good friend criteria?

I guess I didn't, but I will work it out. :)

Amazing race

wheeee.... watched tonight Amazing Race, it's the final episode for this race. The winner is the newly date couple. I'm kinda 紧张 during the show. I'm very amazed of the 69 years old grandfather climbing the glacier, it looks so tough. Quite envious that the participants are able to travel to so many countries.

The grandpa really makes me think alot. I guess he is the oldest man that can travel such a distances. Great determination the grandpa had. I will want to be someone like him in the future. Determination!!

Boring class

This is what we three do in Safety at work:

This is what i do when im really very very bored:

This is what Shenny do when she is bored:

And lastly this is what harry do:


Conclusion: we are real bored by the lecturer.

逃避

现在的我似乎还不能面对。
我知道不能逃避，可是却还没有勇气。
可是我会努力克服一切。

I really like this phrase: 我只跟昨天的我竞争。

我不跟别人比，只与自己比。

刺已拔除

Whenever someone did something bad to you, there will seems to be a thorn in the heart. This thorn will need to be remove, so that the wound will be able to heal.

At first it will hurts after u remove the thorn, you might feel very uncomfortable. Removing the thorn is like letting go of the "bad" things that the person did.

During the healing process, you will feel itch and might tear your wound again and again. This is because sometimes you just can't forgive and tend to keep on thinking how bad the person treated you.

Common sense; if your wound are constantly teared, it's difficult to heal faster.

At the last part of the healing, the wound will finally recover from all the pain and might even leave a scar. But at least you got heal from your hurts.

现在的我心中的刺已拔除。昔日的伤已是今日的疤。

Relationship

I am getting tired of the way im reacting towards people and thing that happens.

Its time for me to change the way i do things. 不能再任性了。

I need to have more wisdom to handle my relationship with others.

It seems that i don't put myself into other people's position and didnt bother about how others will feel when i do or say something.

In a relationship, there will always be someone giving and taking, i guess i had taken too much from others and putting too little efforts in maintaining the relationship.

Hope i will be able to treat others like how i want to be treated.

人海芒芒 yet we still can meet and be friend. It should be something i should cherish.

From now onwards i will cherish each and single friendship of mine.

The following message is to DebbieYeo Wen Ning.

I know it's my fault of saying things that will hurt you.

I am sorry. Thanks for forgiving me and my foolishness.

I will treat you better from now onwards.

shop shop

As from the previous post, i said Ann gave me $30 voucher. Thus, I went to IMM today with Vann, to spent the vouchers. I bought a shirt from Esprit Outlet, a white color shirt. I think its nice just that it is quite translucent, i shall go along it with a tank top inside... :D

We went to Daiso and played abit there and ate subway. Vann is so engrossed with the calories thing. Now i know the meatball is very high in calories! 599calories, the highest out of the meal...

Shall post some pics:

drive drive drive

Yep... I had enrolled myself today at the BBDC. I will be taking as private candidates. :D Really must thanks Sally for accompanying me. I think i will be kinda lost without her... And lucky she was there, cause i didn't expect there's no cash payment but only nets. I think Sally is so cute lor. As i got only 100 note with me, i wanted to go get something to have the change, but she just say it's ok... -.- but i will definitely return her the money lah... (ToSally; 20 bucks is also money!hahaha)She really is someone that will make a good friend, always willing to help... hAhahhaha...

The waiting time for me today is not long, around 20mins. However, the journey to the BBDC is troublesome.

I had booked my BTT on 18 March 2008 Tues 8pm. Hope i will be able to pass it once and for all. :D

YEAH! First step to obtain the driving license is stepped out. :D

travelling

I want go travelling!!! Chatted abit with Harry through msn just now... He asked about backpacking to countries like laos, Thailand, Vietnam etc... I think its fun lah... I really like travelling... But normally the costs will be high cause of the "good accomodation and food" those things...

It's a rare opportunity to meet people that wants to go for backpacking. hahaha... If the budget is not too high i think i will just go for it man... Cool...

Shall make some planning for the trip financially... Hope I will be able to save up during my attachment period for the expenses...

Shopping day...

Wheee.... Bought a new watch today...
Shouldn't say is bought should say is blessed... Cause i didn't pay for it... keke...
Paid by mummy...

I'm also blessed with $30 voucher by Ann... Can be used the CapitaMall... Place like Bugis Junctions, IMM, Junction8, PS etc... So cool... I think I will use it to buy a shirt or pants...

blog blog blog

Didnt attend school today. After doing the elearning for QLA, i start to explore people's blog.
I start viewing celebreties' blog. I linked them to my blog as i feel that their blog is quite interesting. I like Felicia Chin's blog. Alot of pictures.

I started to play with the blogskin. Added my picture on my profile. Hahaha... I think picture is really much more interesting than words. Thus, I'm not going to continue any more further. Will try to turn my blog to a blog full of pictures. *cheers*

Whahahahahahha

Sudoku

I recently discover a fun game, Sudoku. I always know there is a game call sudoku, but i didnt try playing it before. Today, I started playing with Wing in class, as there's one sudoku puzzle in the paper. After trying i think it's super fun. I guess it's the first time I like seeing numbers.

I think I kinda crazy over the Sudoku thing, I went to bought a book of Sudoku at Vista Point. It costs $4.20, kinda worth the money. The exciting part of the day come, i show the Sudoku to my mummy, and i think she's more crazier than me. She started to snatch my "toy", she asked me to buy the Sudoku machine for her to play. Now Lin is also playing it.

Should i buy the Sudoku machine? hahahha... Scare i will waste the thing... Maybe i should buy one if is using mummy's money... wahahahhaha... :D

Wheeeeeee...

Wahahahahhahaha....

It's a quite slack day.

Start school at around 10am and ended at 2pm. (I set the time myself actually)

Continued my day with work at the clinic from 5pm to 9pm.
Got my pay today. Guess how much is my pay this time? Watch Below:

YES! My pay last month HIT exactly $100. I think it is so funny.

Anyway, I changed my blogskin. Kinda bored with the previous. Prefer this blogskin than the previous. I edited my profile and more. What I want to say is: I changed the blogskin MYSELF! Wahahahhaha...

Shall end the post here. Tommorrow got school at 8am and CANNOT BE LATE.

Randommmmm Me

Location: school

It's really yucky to come to school on Sunday! I mean Sunday is my "off day", yet i still need to come back to school, but who can I blame but myself for not being able to focus on the project. Anyway, I'm not alone to come back to school on Sunday, suprisingly there are a number of people at atrium right now. Pei Yi is coming to join me at later time i think. Got some miscommunication towards the time. Hope I will be able to finish this project latest by 6pm.

This is my first entry of 2008! I really hope that it will be a good year for everyone and for me of course. Hope for better GPAs and assign to a good company for my attachment, hope for the best in 2008.

I'm quite worried about my grades, didn't really study much this semester. By the way, i got back my CT and tests result. Glad that I didn't fail any test at the moment. IMGT got 62. OPCS got 77. LCOM got 85. Still waiting for one more paper to be returned, QLA. Hopefully will pass it, really a tough module for me, it's Math.